This weeks Spin Cycle is about roles. Who are you to whom, so to speak. Are you a Mom or Dad, Lawyer, Doctor, Indian Chief? Chief, Cook and Bottle Washer? How many hats do you wear in an average day?
This Spin speaks to something that's been on my mind a lot lately. Admittedly, it happens mostly on bad days. Because some days I feel like I'm putting on the hat, but not doing it justice. Ever have those days?
Yeah, I'm a Mom, but since I sent my kid to daycare with processed mini-muffins for breakfast after whining at him that he needed to move faster in the morning, exactly how well am I doing on that? Remember those old Calvin and Hobbes cartoons where Calvin rates his Dad's job performance? I'm glad LG and little o are too young for that.
I'm an accountant, but if you looked at the Audit schedule you'd know I'm an audit behind right now. I'm on time to work most days. I dress the part. It talk the talk, I walk the walk. But there are better accountants out there. I'm not up to date on all the latest rules. I should be studying harder for the test I need to pass, but I don't make the time (notice I didn't say I don't have the time).
I'm a wife, and a home maker, but have you seen my house lately? Good Housekeeping won't be bestowing a seal on us any time soon (unless they try to seal the doors to keep the innards from contaminating the universe at large).
We won't go into my role as sister, and the fact that my brother called last week and I haven't managed to return that call yet.
I get into those funks where I have the baseball cap on, but the bat just doesn't feel right in my hands. I'd love to get into my car, roll down the windows, crank the stereo and head out on the open road. The thought being that somewhere out there in the Universe is the place where I belong. Where I'll make a difference and things will feel just right. I will make that hat look good.
And then I realize that leaving here isn't the answer. I'm where I want to be. I love all the hats I wear. Each one is special. Yeah, maybe I'm not the greatest all the time, but I'm doing the best I can. Which is all we can ever really do. Some days I do hit one out of the park, and I just have to learn to appreciate those days more. Because when the sun is shining, and we're all singing to the radio on the drive home? I am the World's Greatest.